best jazz fest of zee year!!

We just had our best jazz fest of the year!! My school won best trombone section, best trumpet section, my friend won best trombone soloist, and we got an overall rating of excellent!!!!!!! And I got chosen along with this other guy to go up on stage and receive the awards for our school. Afterwards some of the band parents took all the 8th graders out for pizza. Of course all the popular people went in the same car so me, my one friend, and this other guy who is more like an acquaintance, went in a car with the most popular girl's mom. I knew her mom because in elementary school she used to be my best friend and we would hang out every other day in the summer but now she's gotten more snobby and doesn't talk to me unless she has to. My one friend and I felt so awkward and out of place there....it was really weird. We went to go sit down at the table and all the popular people sat at one end and me and two of my friends sat at the other end with our band director, his wife, his mother, and his little baby. It ended up being pretty fun and the pizza was really good (I had 4 slices!). Plus Jay (the directors baby) was so cute and adorable(: At the end I was then taken home in the same car but this time it was me, my one friend, this other guy, and my ex best friend. It was sorta awkward but her mom is pretty nice so it was okay. Overall it was a great evening!

how i love the weekends(:

I had an awesome Friday 13th! Had a super nice German substitute, the best math class ever, and watched a movie the rest of the day. One of my good friends was sick so my math teacher allowed me to text her as long as I told her the homework. My math teacher decided not to take off points for the homework that she had assigned (and that I didn't do). There were about 5 or 6 people absent because of districts and one of them is like the class clown sorta...he's really funny and he always falls. Somehow when we were going over our homework we got to talking about him and my math teacher (who is awesome!) asked why he always falls so people who knew him pretty well were telling funny stories about him and stuff. Then we got to do our homework and listen to music and stuff. A group of people decided to play with a hacky sack so there was this big hacky sack game. It was down to like 3 people when my desk got out (don't ask me how xP ). Then we watched the movie The Boy in the Striped Pajamas. I don't think I've ever cried that much at a movie before! It's about these little boys and one of them is in a concentration camp and the other ones father runs the camp and they become friends and it's so sad! My bestfriend cries at like every movie and I started crying before her. And after the movie ended I still was crying a little. Anyway tonight we have a jazz fest and it ends at 10:30 then me and some of my friends in jazz band are hanging out and probably getting pizza so we'll be out super late. If I'm not to sleepy I'll blog about it though.

very good day(:

Well today was actually a very good day! I was included in my lunch table. Me and a few of my friends were talking about religion and politics and all that fun stuff. Me, I'm an atheist democrat. Two of my friends are also atheist democrats and we agree on a lot of things. One of my other friends is a Christian republican. We're still good friends and I respect her opinion and everything but sometimes we get into these long debates about stuff. Anyway we were talking about all of that stuff at lunch and it was really fun. Also we only have math homework for tomorrow and I did that yesterday so I have no homework(: And I skipped double block (1 and a half hours of science...eww) and had a lesson with some of my friends instead. My science teacher got a bit mad but we talked our way out of it. Then I had my swimming lesson which went very well. Tomorrow  only have like 3 classes because we are watching a movie the rest of the day. It's called The Boy in the Striped Pajamas. It's about this these two little boys in during the time of the holocaust and WWII. Apparently it's really sad so my friends and I are probably going to cry during the whole thing. One of my friends will be at districts (this music thing for the top ten instrumentalists in my area) so she wont be able to see the movie so we'll probably rent it and watch it again, maybe with some other friends, so that means more crying. I cry during a lot of movies. Well now I'm going to go wash the chlorine out of my hair...ick!

everything's changed

Sorry that I haven't posted in a while. So much has been going on. Jazz fests, homework and such. And like two weeks ago I was failing four of my classes..that was not good! But I managed to bring my grades up to all A's and B's with one C and I got honor roll so grades are good now. I don't know what it is about this year. The year started off fine. In fact it started off great. I sat next to the guy I liked in Social Studies and hung out with him a lot. And I was starting to let myself believe that maybe he liked me back (I always wanted him to like me back but I didn't want to believe it just in case if he didn't maybe it wouldn't be as hard to let go of him) and I started to like him more. It was easier at the beginning of the year, less homework, less drama, less worries. Then something changed. I really don't know what it was. I really wish I did because if I knew what it was I would have tried to eliminate it. I feel like every things changed now. I can't remember the last really good day I had. I've done a bit of crying lately and I've sorta been depressed and moody. Ever since we came back from Christmas break, things just haven't been quite right. I want to go back to the beginning of the year and relive it over and over again. But since I know that can't happen, I'm just going to hope that the days ahead will be happier. And if not, I'll be going to high school next year where I'll meet new people, make new memories, and hopefully start fresh. Okay so I'm going to try to post more often. Tomorrow I have my first swim lesson that I've had in like five years so maybe I'll post about it.

O.o

Well this week hasn't exactly been the best week and it's not even Friday yet. Oh well it could be worse. I was just watching a video on youtube that changed my view on a lot of things. I don't really have enough time to type a lot right now but everybody reading this should watch the video. It is about half an hour long and it probably isn't the best idea to watch it while trying to do homework (as I did). But it is definitely worth watching.

Here is the video:
Kony 2012

and all that jazz

Okay so my school is hosting a jazz fest tonight and I'm in it. It's going to be sooo much fun I'm like so excited!!!!! We get to wear hats from all around the world because the theme is jazz around the world and I get to wear a huge bearskin hat (fake bearskin of course!) like the people in the coldstream guard! And one of my best friends is doing the spotlight so we are going to hang out up there all night(: Two of my friends and I were dancing around on the stage after school and singing in the mics and it was sooo funny! I got a bunch of videos and in the one video I got Justin (he's this college kid who used to go to my middle school and he comes back to help with the tech stuff and lighting and everything) trying to show my friend how to sing the star spangled banner, then he realized that I was recording it and he was like "that video will be shown to no one" it was really funny! I have to get ready now but I shall let you guys know how it goes XD

honors application

I just finished doing my honors application for high school! I'm sort of nervous that I wont make it. Every single year I have been a straight A student and I have gotten honor roll for all the quarters in middle school since sixth grade. Now my grades are slipping a bit and I don't think that my teachers will recommend me. Maybe I'm just being to hard on myself. And anyway my parents can always call the school and request for me to be in honors. But it would be nice to know that I did it myself. Now I'm thinking about how I'm all excited for high school and everything. Thank god tomorrow is Friday!!!!!!! Anyway we had to submit a writing sample along with our application and I submitted one of the songs that I wrote:

You obviously don’t know
the way she looks at you
like the time when the grass is wet with morning dew
the way she has your back
when your girlfriend attacks

The way she sighs
just open up your eyes
but you are

(Chorus)
Completely absolutely totally oblivious
unintentionally blind
you stare right through her like a ghost
I guess I’m just wasting my time
but I can’t help feeling this way

You obviously don’t realize
the way she looks into your eyes
like a magical creature under distant skies
the way she laughs
even if your jokes aren’t funny

You obviously cant see
the way you make me dizzy
every time you brush my side
I just need you
to look into my eyes
but you are

(Chorus)
Completely absolutely totally oblivious
unintentionally blind
you stare right through her like a ghost
I guess I’m just wasting my time
but I can’t help feeling this way

But then you turn away from me
and walk in to her arms
the way she fakes a smile at you
though I know she doesn’t love you
not like I do

I know she’ll break your heart
the moment she can run into his arms
she’ll leave you
without a backward glance

If you just look
over your shoulder
I’m standing here
if you could just see
how much I love you
but you are

(Chorus)
Completely absolutely totally oblivious
unintentionally blind
you stare right through me like I’m a ghost
I guess I’m just wasting my time
but I can’t help feeling that you are
completely absolutely totally oblivious
unintentionally blind
you stare right through me like I’m a ghost
I guess I’m just wasting my time
I guess I’m just wasting my time

(fades out)
why do I have to waste my time?
my heart wont listen to me
I’m fallin’ for a blind guy

crappy year

So I was just looking back at my eighth grade year, and while yeah there were some good things, this year has been a pretty crappy year.
I always seem to not have enough time to do all my homework and get enough sleep so it's either one or the other.
There is so much drama going on it's just crazy.
This is my first year getting B's and C's on my report cards and midquarters.
I still have to finish my honors application which is due in two days and we have to include a writing sample and I don't have a good writing sample to submit.
The PSSA's (these huge tests) are coming up and all the teacher's are freaking out trying to get us prepared.
Plus it's all cold and rainy outside half the time. I just wish summer would come sooner. I am in great need of a vacation. I need to go to a nice warm beach somewhere and go swimming and get a tan.